Day 11

Dear Wolfgang,

I’m struggling with my energy levels again today. My body feels heavy and sore and no amount of sleep feels like it could ever be enough. This is all completely normal for EDS and I guess my usual energy issues have been compounded by recovering from labour and getting used to our new routines.

Today your daddy and Pa went to Ikea to buy you a proper crib. This was the longest stretch of time you and I have been alone together since you were in my tummy. We did well together, even though you tried to scream the house down during your nappy change. You’ve been feeding every two hours today and I feel like all I’ve achieved is sitting with you at my breast. That, and nappy changes.

I’d be lying if I said that I wasn’t anxious about your daddy returning to work. I know we’ll muddle through together, but while I adore the quality time with you, when you just won’t settle and nothing seems to soothe your tears, the hours can seem very long. We’ll find our way, little one, but I know the road won’t always be smooth.

4 thoughts on “Day 11

  1. Dear Krystal sadly a lot of new mothers feel exactly the same way. So I do hope you find a mother’s group for extra support. Particularly when Dan goes. Ack to work as it will help nourish you in a positive way. Knowing you’re not on your own & sharing ideas about what works for them & yourself & what doesn’t & exploring new ways of doing things with Wolfgang. You will be ok 🙂 <3 xo

    1. Thank you. I know we’ll find our way through, and I’m already booked into a mothers’ group and a playgroup, so I’ll have lots of support going forward. I’m generally feeling very positive, but I’m working on being honest about all my emotions as I experience them. I really appreciate your kind words.

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